The Road So Far: One Week Out

This time next week I’ll be on a plane to Las Vegas. For two very important reasons. One is an important event, something I’ve been planning for almost a year but didn’t even know I wanted a year ago. A TV show, a cast, and a fandom entered my life and helped me through a very  hard time, and honestly kept me going.

Now I realize I have my whole life ahead of me and am ready for the next chapter, which is the other reason. For me to get back to my city, to start making plans for my life in Vegas. I’ve realized it’s what I want more than anything and now I’m ready for it.

I feel so lucky to be able to conclude my first year in this fandom with such an amazing experience, to be able to see these actors in person and thank them for all they’ve done for me. And for all of it to happen in the city I want to make my home.

I truly believe that everything happens for a reason, and Supernatural was supposed to enter my life at this time in my life and I was supposed to go to VegasCon. I feel like this is finally the time for things to work out for me. The road hasn’t been easy, but the easiest past is rarely the most enjoyable. And I plan on enjoying next weekend to the fullest, and everything else life has to bring me from here on out.

The Road So Far: Supernatural Saved Me

For me as I've found for many people in the fandom, Supernatural is so much more than a TV show. I never expected to get so emotionally involved in a TV show and I NEVER expected a TV show to change my life.

 The only thing that can compare to my emotional attachment to SPN is my attachment to Elvis, but I always thought of that as a more "legitimate" or "rational" attachment because Elvis was a real person. Truth be told I always thought people who were so emotionally attached to fictional characters were taking things a little to far. But the characters on SPN are different. I can relate to both Sam AND Dean in so many ways. From moving around a lot as a kid, to losing a parent, to feeling like I've (not literally) gone through Hell.

When I "discovered" Supernatural about a year ago (I'd heard about it a little, but not a ton of hype. It appeared to be very underground to me, and I came across it on TNT one morning and decided to watch it.) I was at a very low point in my life. A turn of events happened over the past couple of years, I'd made decisions I regretted and things just weren't going my way. I felt lost and extremely lonely. 

Supernatural became something for me to be excited about, something to look forward to and something to belong to. I believe it was no accident that I happened upon it that Friday morning, I believe I needed it to come into my life at that time in my life. I was depressed, I wasn't to the point of wanting to end my life but I can see that being the road I might have gone down had I not found Supernatural. 

A year later I am in a much better place. I have a much more positive outlook on life and hope for the future. Supernatural might not have solely saved my life, but it definitely brought me back to life.