Saturday, January 16, 2016

Makeup Rant

As a girl and a girl who loves makeup, there's a topic that really gets to me every time it's brought up. People talk about how for years women have been put under pressure to look "perfect" by wearing makeup, but it seems nowadays that women who don't wear makeup get praised and women who do, especially women who wear a full face of makeup get cut down for it. 

I have reached a point in my life where I AM comfortable wearing no makeup in certain situations, I CAN leave the house without makeup on. I don't like it, but I can do it. I prefer myself with makeup. I feel more like myself with makeup. I don't do it for anyone else, I do it for me. It's the way I like to present myself to the world.

I am by no means telling anyone they HAVE to wear makeup. I see plenty of girls that look gorgeous both with or without makeup. I'm just tired of women who take advantage of resources out there to enhance their beauty and/or create their OWN form of beauty being looked down upon. Wearing makeup or not wearing makeup doesn't make you more of a women, a stronger woman, or a more valuable woman. 

At the end of the day it's every individual's choice whether she wears makeup or not, or how much makeup she wears. Basically I'm saying there are all kinds of beautiful and neither end of the spectrum (or the middle of the spectrum) should be judged.

Monday, November 16, 2015


For someone special. I realized yesterday when I was looking into your eyes that I'm home with you.❤️

Alabama, Arkansas
I do love my ma and pa
Not that way that I do love you
Holy moley, me oh my
You're the apple of my eye
Babe, I've never loved one like you
Man, oh man, you're my best friend
I scream it to the nothingness
There ain't nothing that I need
Well, hot and heavy, pumpkin pie
Chocolate candy, Jesus Christ
Ain't nothing please me more than you
Ah, home, let me go home
Home is wherever I'm with you
Ah, home, let me go home
Home is wherever I'm with you
La, la, la, la, take me home
Mommy, I'm coming home
I'll follow you into the park
Through the jungle, through the dark
Babe, I never loved one like you
Moats and boats and waterfalls
Alleyways and pay phone calls
I've been everywhere with you
That's true, laugh until we think we'll die
Barefoot on a summer night
Never could be sweeter than with you
And in the streets you run a-free
Like it's only you and me
Geez, you're something to see
Ah, home, let me go home
Home is wherever I'm with you
Ah, home, let me go home
Home is wherever I'm with you
La, la, la, la, take me home
Daddy, I'm coming home
Ah, home, let me go home
Home is wherever I'm with you
Ah, home, let me go home
Home is where I'm alone with you
Home, let me come home
Home is wherever I'm with you
Ah, home, yes I am home
Home is when I'm alone with you
Alabama, Arkansas
I do love my ma and pa
Moats and boats and waterfalls
Alleyways and pay phone calls
Ah, home, let me go home
Home is wherever I'm with you
Ah, home, let me go home
Home is where I'm alone with you

Wednesday, August 19, 2015

Elvis Is Back In The Building

Since the Elvis Exhibit at Westgate Las Vegas opened earlier this year, I have visited 3 times. It holds a very special place in my heart, not only because of my love for Elvis but also by how closely I feel our lives are connected and how similar our relationship with Las Vegas is.

Here's a little history on the Westgate. The Westgate Hotel and Casino is now one of the oldeststill in  existence in it's original building in Las Vegas. When it opened in 1969 it was named the International Hotel. The International was sold to Hilton properties in 1970 and renamed the Las Vegas Hilton in 1971. Elvis opened in the International showroom on July 31,1969 and performed 58 consecutive sold out shows, breaking all Las Vegas audience attendance records in history. He would perform again at the property in February of 1970, August of 1970 (famously showcased in his 1970 film Elvis: That's The Way It Is), August of 1972 and again in December of 1976. Elvis even loved the property so much he lived in the penthouse on the 30th floor during his residencies.  The property was renamed the LVH in 2008, then sold to Westgate Resorts and renamed the Westgate Las Vegas in 2014.

When the property was renamed it was also announced that Elvis's presence would be known again. A brand new permanent exhibit with items direct from the Graceland archives was brought in. The very idea of an exhibit in this building dedicated to the man that made it famous was a novel idea that was a long time coming.

The exhibit is beautifully done. It takes you on a journey throughout Elvis's life. It is a soul stirring experience if you can let yourself take it all in and you can truly feel Elvis's presence around you.

The beginning of the exhibit takes you back to Tupelo and Elvis's humble beginnings in Memphis as a young truck driver with a dream of becoming a singer.
There are several items I think some of the most seasoned Elvis fans haven't seen. For example Elvis's tassel from his graduation cap from Humes High in 1953.
Can you spot Elvis in his ROTC group photo?

Then it takes you through his first recording experience at Sun studio, his rise to fame to RCA, his army stint and his movie career.
The orange racing suit Elvis wore in his 1964 film co-starring Ann Margret Viva Las Vegas

And my personal favorite part of the exhibit is his return to the stage in the International showroom in Las. Vegas. There's something about being in the very building with the very clothes and items used during this time that is almost surreal. It takes you back in time and you can almost imagine that Elvis is still playing in the showroom nightly.

The blue suit Elvis wore to sign his initial contract with the International while it was still under construction in 1969. (the picture beside.)

A review of Elvis's first performance at the International on July 31,1969.

The suits Elvis wore onstage and to the press conference immediately following his performance on opening night.

There are several jumpsuits as well as personal items on display throughout the rest of the tour. Just a sampling are shown here:


The grand finale is a beautifully done documentary taking you on a journey throughout Elvis's remarkable career. It shows his talent, his charisma, his passion and his heart and brings me to tears every time I watch it.

I have nothing but good things to say about this exhibit. It truly is a tribute fit for a king. (Yeah I had to go there, forgive me for that one cliche.) I have the highest recommendations of it and am so thankful Elvis has rightfully taken back his place in Las Vegas history because of it.

Elvis IS back in the building! (He never truly left. ;))

Wednesday, March 4, 2015

The Road So Far 2.0: Always Keep Fighting

I don't know why I always get the urge to write late at night, my thoughts seem to flow better during this time. Anyway, I was inspired by Jared to share my story. I don't talk about this often, in fact I usually avoid bringing it up but it IS a subject that needs to be adressed and if it can help save one person it is beyond worth it.

I do have first hand experience with suicide. My dad suffered from bipolar disorder and struggled with it for as far back as I can remember. He ultimately took his own life in 2009 when I was 17. That was without a doubt the hardest thing I've ever had to go through and have been a strong advocate of suicide prevention ever since. 

On the flip side, I have also struggled with depression issues myself. Around the time I found Supernatural I was in a very dark place. I felt very lost and very lonely. There were times that year that the thought of suicide crossed my mind. I never made any attempts or any plans, but I did have those thoughts. 

Then I discovered Supernatural by chance. Did I think right away when I started watching it that it was going to save my life? No. I didn't even realize half of the affect that it would have on me. Honestly, I thought okay it's a show with 2 hot guys in a hot car with ghosts and monsters. But it made me happy. Then as I got more into the story I realized it was so much more. I related to these characters. I noticed immediately that I  connected very deeply with Sam. And then I discovered the fandom, and that gave me something to belong to. I especially loved how connected the cast was to the fans and the way they thought of them as family. 

Soon I didn't only have a connection to Sam, I also had one to Jared. He gave me happiness, he gave me hope and he gave me inspiration to keep going. Sometimes still during that year I would have moments of wanting to give up but knowing I was going to get to meet him was the main reason I wanted to push through. I wanted to be here for that. And meeting him was a truly life changing experience. We only exchanged a few words but he gave me so much inspiration to keep going. He is the reason I turned my life around, the reason I felt determined to get to a happier place. And even though I'm still working on getting to where I ultimately want to be, and even though I still have my moments of weakness I am inspired to always keep going, because of him.

I can't  think of a better campaign and better message for Jared to be a leader for. It is everything Supernatural, Sam Winchester and Jared Padalecki are to me. A symbol of hope, a symbol of strength, and an inspiration to never give up, to ALWAYS KEEP FIGHTING. And I couldn't be more proud of him, or to support this cause. You are an amazing individual Jared, I love you.❤️

Please if you or someone you know is suffering from depression, talk about it! And please support this amazing cause:

Thursday, February 26, 2015

The Road So Far 2.0: Getting Inked Up

After attending VegasCon 2014 I knew I wanted a Supernatural tattoo. I even decided that weekend that I wanted to get one. Because of the instant connection I had with fans and cast alike and the overwhelming feeling of family. I knew then that it meant more to me than just a TV show. That this story, these characters and this fandom would be a part of me for life. So I wanted to commemorate it with a tattoo.

I thought about the design a lot and while I loved the idea of getting the anti possession symbol and having the same tattoo as Sam and Dean, I also wanted something that represented what the show meant to me and to represent the SPN family.  I'd never  seen a traditional style Supernatural tattoo before but I thought it would be cool, so I came up with the idea of getting the colt which was a perfect symbol of the show with a banner that said "Saving People, Hunting Things" which of course the next line is "The Family Business" which represents my SPN Family.

I got it done by Lea Vendetta at Hart and Huntington (HUNTINGton!) Tattoo in the Hard Rock Hotel and Casino. Which is a GORGEOUS shop by the way! Take a look:

Lea has a really cool way of combining styles and the design she came up with was amazing. It was like a portrait of the colt but still had a traditional feel which I loved. She also took so much time to make sure all the engravings were perfect on the gun and tried out a few different fonts for the banner. We decided on this for the final design and it was perfect.
Then she shrunk it down to fit on my arm and put the stencil on. We let that dry for about 5 minutes and then got started!
First of all I have to point out that Lea was totally awesome. We had great conversation and she got really interested in the show as I was telling her about it. She wanted to see pictures of the boys because I told her "they're nice to look at." And she said she would totally go for Sam which I loved. So she made it an easier process for me. The pain really wasn't that bad. She started with the outline, which only hurt around my wrist and my elbow. Then she went over the banner and the edges of the gun to make it thicker to make it look more traditional.
(And yes, I got tattooed in plaid. What other way is there to do so?)

Then she did the shading which honestly only hurt when she was wiping away the excess ink. 
And then finally she did color! And I will be honest and say this DID start to hurt towards the end because essentially she was tattooing over my skin twice. So it was very raw and stung a lot.
But I made it through in 4 hours and couldn't be happier with the result! It turned out better than I even imagined. And now I have peice of art forever on my body to show my dedication to my favorite TV show, my love for my SPN Family and to always also remind myself to never stop fighting which is what Supernatural is all about for me.❤️

Sunday, February 15, 2015

The Road So Far 2.0: One Year Later

Sooo I haven't blogged in FOREVER. And a whole bunch of crap has happened in my personal life. But it looks like things are looking up. ;) And I AM living in Las Vegas officially again! AND VegasCon is exactly one month from today!!! I can't believe it has been a year already, and I can't believe how close it is. I feel like I've accomplished a lot in this year and overall I am in a better place this year mentally and emotionally than I was last year. And once again I have Supernatural and my SPN Family to thank for that. 

I didn't truly know the meaning of SPN Family until VegasCon last year and after that experience my outlook on life changed. It gave me courage and strength and hope to carry on. I now have friends I know in real life that I met through the Supernatural fandom. I am more invested and dedicated to Supernatural than I ever have been since I started watching but at the same I have accomplished so much in my own personal growth as a person and I know none of it would have happened without Supernatural. I am so grateful for this show, this story, these characters and this fandom every day. I truly believe I wouldn't be where I am and wouldn't be WHO I am and possibly wouldn't be here today without Supernatural. 

I may not be exactly where I thought I would be by now, or have reached my ultimate goal but if Sam and Dean have taught me anything it's this: life is a journey, not a destination. It's the road so far. And I can't wait to celebrate just how far I've come over the past year and look forward to the road ahead. I can't wait to see my SPN Family including the cast. I can't wait it see Jared, my sunshine. To tell him I love him and thank him for all he's done for me. I can't wait for four days of wonderful and amazing. I want to soak it all in. To savor every single second. To take away more amazing memories. I just can't wait.  

Saturday, April 5, 2014

VegasCon 2014: Day 3

Sunday was a very bittersweet day. We were still reeling from our amazing day with the J's. Once again I barely got any sleep because the realization of how much my moment with Jared meant to me hit me and I broke down and cried. Tears of joy and just being overwhelmed with how much he went out of his way to be so kind to me and make that moment special for me.

Getting ready was also a little sad that day because we knew it was the last time. I hadn't planned a specific outfit for that day and I just kind of put it together, but it actually ended up being my favorite one (Jim Michaels liked my scarf!)!
We went downstairs to get our wristbands once again. Then we went back to Starbucks for breakfast. Chad Linburg was actually sitting at a table in the corner and I wanted to go talk to him and tell him how much I enjoyed his but he was of course surrounded by fans. We had a nice, relaxing breakfast though. Reflecting on yesterday's events and sharing our excitement for the day ahead. 

We had one last welcome from Rich and EWB. It was amazing how much energy they still had on Day 4. I can't say enough great things about those guys. They were the heart of the con, they kept the energy up and made the whole experience even more enjoyable, I LOVE THEM! 

The first panel of the day was Guy Norman Bee. (Guy Norman A, and C wee so disappointed Sweet Johnny didn't choose them.) He is one of my favorite directors on the show, so it was really cool to sit in on. He gave great insight to the behind the scenes and was a super nice guy. I had a chance to talk to him afterwards and get his autograph, I told him I loved his episodes and he said "that means a lot, because we tend to do this in a bubble and don't always get to hear that." This is just another amazing example of how everyone within in the Supernatural family makes you feel like family.

Then was the ever adorable Felicia Day. A fan had made a compilation video of other fans thanking her and highlighting her work. It was a beautiful video, and Felicia got teary eyed when she came out. This made me cry too.

Felecia was super sweet and funny. She was also, like everybody very inspiring. My favorite thing she said was in regard to a question about being a "fake geek girl" meaning that if you were new to something you couldn't possibly love it as much as someone who had been invested for years. She said "I think that's bullshit." She explained that the "geek community" or and subculture was a place for outsiders and that we should be accepting of everybody. I've had experiences with other "communities" and not feeling welcome in them, feeling like I wasn't "good enough". Supernatural is one place that is not like that at all. Felecia was delightful and so sweet to all her fans. You could tell she was so thankful to be there.

After Felicia's panel we had a break. So we decided to go back to the vendors room. My mom wanted to get a picture of Jensen and she needed my help picking one out. She got a gorgeous picture that she'll get him to sign later. :) 

Then it was time for Misha's second panel. I honestly feel like I know Misha at this point. I saw him so many times over the weekend and he just has a way about him that makes you feel at ease. I wasn't planning on taking a lot of pictures because I had taken them the day before and I wanted to save some battery for Mark and Mark. But when he said "I have a special guest, you may know him from his work on the small screen..." I knew immediately I had to capture it. West came out on stage and everybody awwwwed. We started screaming "We love you West!" Misha said "What is going on? They know your name. That's kinda weird huh?"

West was completely adorable and of course ended up stealing the show. Misha also pointed out that Victoria "was NOT sitting in the front row wearing a pink tank top!" They also had friends visiting and it was really sweet that they were both there to support Misha.

The next big event was Mark Sheppard and Mark Pellegrino. These guys were so much fun. They have amazing chemistry together, even though they were never on the show together.
Both of them are also absolutely charming in person. Mark S. walked around in the audience, and even found Osric in the front row and sat on his lap proclaiming "I found Kevin!"

The audience agreed that they would love to see Crowley and Lucifer fight against each other for reign over hell (where else do you have discussions like this besides a Supernatural convention? haha, I love it.) And Mark P. said "I'd kick his ass."

Once again, these guys were great. Like everyone, that had a way of making you feel comfortable. They were very candid and funny. 

After Mark2 was the grand finale, the most wild, random and crazy panel of the whole weekend. I have just one word for you...Sebastian!

I don't think he answered a single question. He would start to but then get so far off topic, he would then go back to the person who asked and say "I'm sorry, what was your question darling?" There was Matthew McConnuhey impression "alright alright alright!" And a lovely song entitled "I Like My Girls" accompanied by dancing and running through the aisles of course. There was also song inspired by a flower crown a fan had that Sebastian then put on. "My Flower Crown" was basically a slowed down version of "I Like My Girls".

He also went on about his theory that he could be Jesus come back to earth. "What if it was me? What if it was me and you didn't know it?!" It ended with a shirt being ripped off and a guitar "solo" with some help from Sweet Johnny. Haha, Sebastian I love you. 

After Sebastian's panel we had a farewell from Rich. It felt like the end of summer camp or something. I was so sad I wasn't going to be able to hang out with these guys the next day. Before we finally said goodbye, Misha came back on stage and spoke for everyone we he said to Rob "we are all so fucking happy to have you here." Rob went on to explain that he was so happy to be back and could "feel the love from every single one of you." Misha then started the cheering of "Rob Rob Rob Rob!" Again, watch the video. It was a beautiful moment that I'm so happy I could be a part of.

The absolute perfect ending to my VegasCon was getting Misha's autograph. I was getting it for my friend Brantlee who asked me if she bought the ticket if I would get it for her and of course I said yes!

 We had a while to wait because Misha still had to do photo ops, and of course there were A LOT people in the photo op line. At this point it felt surreal that the con was over. Everyone waiting sat around in the panel room which really felt like home. I sat on the floor while charging my phone and reflecting on the truly awesome and amazing weekend I'd just had. I was exhausted by this point but still excited for Misha. 

They finally told us to start lining up and even though I'd seen him several times in the past two days I got a little shaky when I got in line. Misha came out and sat down at the table. I know he was exhausted but he took time to talk to every single person. When I got up there I said "Hi." He said "Hi." I told him I was so excited to finally meet him cause I'd seen so much the past two days and I did this little dance saying "I get to meet Misha!" just...why. But he smiled. He held out his hand and we shook hands. He asked how the weekend had been. I told him it was awesome and that it was my first time. He asked if I would do it again and I said "definitely!" I told him "Thank you." and he winked. He was so approachable and adorable. 

Then as we were walking down the hallway on the way to dinner we ran into Jim Michaels. I had to stop him and asked him for a high five because he was so awesome. He said "sure, I think you guys are awesome!"  He complimented my scarf and then my mom reminded him that I had an idea for a Season 9 DVD extra for a tour of The Bunker that he replied to. And he said he thought they did it, so we'll see! 

I can not tell you enough how nice every single person I met at VegasCon from cast, to crew, to fans was. If you have never been to one, you have to go. It was a life changing experience for me. I feel like I am part of something now. And something so special. Family was the theme of the weekend. And I truly feel like I am a part of the Supernatural family now. All of us that were there are bonded and will always have the memories of this amazing weekend. It may have been my first con, but it will not be my last. Cons are a part of my life now as much as Supernatural is a part of my life. SPN FAMILY FOREVER!