I ❤️ Fall

Fall is my favorite season. My favorite color. My favorite flavor. It seriously puts me in the best mood. We are a week into September and my perspectives are completely changed. The air is crisper, the leaves are starting to turn, Halloween decorations are starting to pop up in stores, and pumpkin spice is readily available. Also the return of all new episodes of Supernatural is coming!!! It's amazing how much of a difference of simply a switching a new month can completely change my state of mind, but it has. It's Fall, and I'm happy.

I Miss VegasCon.

I miss VegasCon. I miss everything about it. I miss waking up every morning in the Rio. I miss getting my morning Starbucks at the CONVENTION SIDE Starbucks. I miss making all the treks down the mile long hallways. I miss rocking out Rich and Louden Swain every morning. I miss being surrounded by people in SPN t shirts, various forms of cosplay and endless amounts of plaid. I miss clapping and cheering and listening to and laughing with every single guest on the stage. I miss screaming my lungs out every time the Season 12 renewal was mentioned. I miss referring to guests by their first names and everyone knowing who you're talking about. I miss going to dinner and seeing fellow attendees who you don't know but you know they just came from the con. I miss randomly hearing my name and walking over and hugging complete strangers, except that they're not because they know me online. I miss going to the photo op room, and the anticipation of seeing your ops after they've been printed. I miss hearing Carry On Wayward Son played on loud speakers. I miss wandering around in the vendors room saying "oh that's so cool.". I miss complementing people on their outfits or their ops and them doing it back to me. I miss Jared. I miss the butterflies in my stomach I woke up with on Sunday morning. I miss how happy I was getting ready to go down and start JDAY. I miss the intense nervousness I felt sitting in a room with 19 other people less than a foot away from the chair he would sit in. I miss seeing him for the first time of the weekend. I miss watching him up close and catching all of his mannerisms. I miss him looking into my eyes and giving me full attention, answering me so passionately. I miss the scent of his cologne. I miss his arms around me. I miss my arms around him. I miss him calling me "darlin'", Texas drawl in full effect. I miss him rubbing my arms and making our moment last longer. I miss the insane high I feel after I'm around him. I miss seeing J2 on stage. I miss trying to take every single second in. I miss Rich telling us goodbye. I miss waiting to get to Jared's autograph but also not wanting to make it to that moment because then it would officially be over. I miss standing in front of him, I miss how ""heart eyes" I am around him because I just can't help it. I miss him looking up at me. I miss him almost whispering and winking at me. I miss him blowing me a kiss goodbye. I miss VegasCon.

Makeup Rant

As a girl and a girl who loves makeup, there's a topic that really gets to me every time it's brought up. People talk about how for years women have been put under pressure to look "perfect" by wearing makeup, but it seems nowadays that women who don't wear makeup get praised and women who do, especially women who wear a full face of makeup get cut down for it. 

I have reached a point in my life where I AM comfortable wearing no makeup in certain situations, I CAN leave the house without makeup on. I don't like it, but I can do it. I prefer myself with makeup. I feel more like myself with makeup. I don't do it for anyone else, I do it for me. It's the way I like to present myself to the world.

I am by no means telling anyone they HAVE to wear makeup. I see plenty of girls that look gorgeous both with or without makeup. I'm just tired of women who take advantage of resources out there to enhance their beauty and/or create their OWN form of beauty being looked down upon. Wearing makeup or not wearing makeup doesn't make you more of a women, a stronger woman, or a more valuable woman. 

At the end of the day it's every individual's choice whether she wears makeup or not, or how much makeup she wears. Basically I'm saying there are all kinds of beautiful and neither end of the spectrum (or the middle of the spectrum) should be judged.