When Jim's panel was over that was it. It was time. We still had a while to wait, but didn't want to go anywhere. We just shared our nervousness with the girls sitting next to us. They started with the Jared and Jensen Duo ops. It felt like an eternity and that it was rushing by at the same time. Then it was time for Jensen ops. My mom was #180 and when they called numbers 150-200, I have her a hug, told her I loved her and she was in her way. I was super emotional and nervous for her as well as myself while she was gone. I can feel that same nervousness right now. I kept checking the door to see her come back. She finally did and I stood up asking her "SO???" She said "he's the most beautiful man I've ever seen." I asked her how it went and she told me she couldn't speak. He told her "you're okay, just hug me and smile." and then leaned his head on her's and said "ya good?" She nodded and he said "thank you." The thing is she was way more confident than I was, so I knew I was screwed for Jared.
They FINALLY started calling Jared photo ops. It didn't seem real. I could barely think, my nerves were taking over my body. But I tried to focus on the numbers on the screen. 1-100, 150-200, 200-250, and then finally 250-300. I stood up shakily and began walking out into the hallway. I got in line and I could barely feel my legs moving. The line moved so quickly and literally right when I stepped inside the room, I saw him. All I could say was "Oh my God." My heart was pounding and I got tears in my eyes. I started fanning my face so I would stop crying, and the amazingly sweet girl in front of me asked me "is it your first time?" I told her yes. She took my hand and said "you'll be fine, he is the nicest person in the world and when he sees how excited you are to meet him, he'll be even more excited." She held my hand until I felt more calmed down. I kept my eyes on Jared the whole time. He was so adorable posing with everybody, and thanking them afterwards. I passed Cliff and the girl in front of me chatted with him. Then it got real. I got closer and closer to Jared. The girl in front of me went up for her photo. The volunteer took my ticket ripped it off and handed it back to me. The girl in front of me was talking to Jared as she walked away and he was facing her. I stared at the beauty of his stature: his broad shoulders and his beautiful hair (OMG it was so beautiful) for half a second and then he turned around to face me. I honestly don't know how I didn't burst into tears. But I just said "Hi." He said "Hi." I told him "I'm shaking so bad." we were still a couple of inches apart when I said this, but then he said as if it was all one word "oh no don't." "I'll hold you tight!" Then he lunged down to get to my height, his front leg was bent down to my hip level, and his back leg was extended out behind me. He squeezed me in as close to him as he possibly could and wrapped his arms around me all in one motion. Somehow I got my arms around him, but I don't remember it happening. Chris took the picture and I had no idea what my face looked like, except that I was the happiest I'd ever been in my life. After the picture was taken Jared didn't let go of me, it was like he knew I had something to say to him. He stood up to his full height and we both still had our arms wrapped around each other. I looked up at him, directly into his beautiful eyes and was lost in them for a second. I said "I love you so much." He looked in my eyes the whole time he said "I love you back" with this adorable little head tilt "you're a doll." I didn't want it to end, but it had to. I just told him "thank you so much." Our eyes still locked, he took my hands and said "thank you." It was literally the most perfect moment, I could not have planned it better. He is the sweetest and most genuine person I have ever met. He made me feel like we were the only two people who were in the room. He will never know how much that moment meant to me.
My photo op:
I'm so happy with how it came out! Perfect Jared with his arms wrapped around me. And my huge smile because I was the happiest I could ever be!
And I forgot to mention in my initial summary (I don't know what's wrong with me!) and people have asked but he smelled AMAZING! I can't pinpoint an exact smell...cologney and amazing, that's all I can describe it as. And height (I think he's taller than 6'4", 6'5" at least) and hair, and scruff, and rock hard chest and huge arms and hands around me, and entrancing green eyes, and ooh. And although I was so thrilled and amazed to be there in his embrace, he made me feel so comfortable. I could and WOULD live in those arms. I feel like I'll never be able to describe just how truly amazing it was.
I walked out of the room on a Jared high. I touched my heart in disbelief of what had just happened. My mom told me she was going to be in the vendors room, so I made my way down there to find her. I spotted her in the hall. I walked up to her quickly and I started crying. She said "could you not speak?" I said "no." And I had to take a moment to collect myself to tell her what had happened. I told her and she just hugged me and I started crying some more. I told her thank you, and that she was the best mom ever for giving me that moment.
We had about an hour before J2 panel so we decided to go up to our room and charge our phones and grab a drink before the big event.
Get ready for J2 panel and a LOT of pictures!
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