The Road So Far: Hellatus

Tuesday night was the Supernatural mid-season finale and the began my first official Hellatus. I dealt with some of it with Season 8, because I watched the last few episodes live but I still had some to catch up on to keep me going. I honestly don't know how I'm going to handle having to wait until January for the next episode.


I don't even know where to begin. I'm in denial about what happened. I can't believe Kevin is dead. I had my suspicions all along about Ezekiel/Gadriel, but I was not prepared for what happened when it came time for Dean to tell "Sam" the truth. I was crying for Sam and I was crying for Dean. I thought for a second Sam could eject Gadriel and things would be okay (at least in SPN world). And then Gadreel said the line that hurt me so much I can't even type it. And Dean was left all alone with Kevin dead, crying. The one silver lining out of this episode was that Cas got his grace back. And I HOPE this is a good thing. I hate Metatron and therefore Heaven right now. At this point I'm asking myself why Sam even had to do the trials to shut down Hell in the first place. I'd take Hell over Heaven any day when it comes to Supernatural.


I cried during the episode, but mostly I think I was in shock. I was shaking. I felt sick to my stomach. I've never felt this emotionally attached to a show in my life. I care about these characters as if they were real. And it hurt, bad.


I need Sam Winchester. He is my inspiration, my light at the end of the tunnel. I don't know how I will deal with the anticipation and the aftermath. At least I know the rest of the fandom will suffering with me and we can comfort each other. Also when Supernatural returns it will be exactly two months until VegasCon...crazy.

Halloween

I know I'm a little late on this (Halloween was almost a week ago, oops!) but I wanted to share my Halloween costume. I decided to be Abaddon from Supernatural. I had so much fun being her for the night and I was pretty proud of it.



Here is the fabulous Alaina Huffman portraying Abaddon, and my inspiration.

 

 And my version. I was super proud of my hair, I wish I'd gotten a better picture of it. I set it with pin curls using a curling iron. Then I did a front swirl and a French twist with curls on top. My makeup was just my typical pin-up makeup with a zombie twist. I hollowed out my eyes with a brown eye shadow and smeared my lipstick. Then I added temporary tattoo stitches to my neck with fake blood and scabs.

 

 

 

As for my outfit I wore my own motorcycle jacket, and Abaddon's actual "The Devil Made Me Do It" t-shirt from Spreadshirt.com. I paired it with black shorts and fishnets and studded motorcycle boots.

 

This was my favorite Halloween costume so far, but I'm already planning for next year! ;)

 

The Road So Far: Season 9 Premiere

This was the first season premiere I watched live. I was nervous, anxious, and excited all at the same time. When Season 8 ended we knew things were not good, and the image of Sam lying in that hospital bed from the promo was haunting me. I knew it was going to be an intense episode, but I didn't know how intense. Within the first five minutes I am already in tears at Dean praying for Sam. I was very upset by the scenes inside Sam's head. I was rooting for the "Dean" part which was telling him to fight, and telling the "Bobby" part which was telling him to give up to stop. I was literally screaming at my TV.

Then Ezekiel came into the picture. At first I was grateful for him. I thought "okay, he can make it better." Meanwhile back in Sam's head Sam is saying he wants to die. He tells Death that if he dies he wants him to promise that it will be final. This is heartbreaking. Once again I am in tears and screaming at my TV "No Sam!". But I knew Dean wouldn't let that happen. Dean will always do whatever it takes to save Sam.

Ezekiel says he can save Sam from the inside out, meaning he will possess Sam. Again I'm screaming "no", because I didn't know what this would mean. Would Sam be gone forever? Would Sam be Ezekiel now? I didn't like that, I didn't want that. Then Ezekiel explained he would only stay until Sam was healed.

Then back in Sam's head Dean gave the "There ain't no me if there ain't no you." speech, which I truly do believe was Dean and then Ezekiel jumped in. Of course, Sam said "yes" to Ezekiel and he was out of the hospital, but as Ezekiel. I thought this was going to be like Souless Sam, that we would have Ezekiel for a while until Sam woke up. But then Sam woke up in the Impala. He didn't remember the hospital, he didn't remember the stuff inside his head, he didn't remember Ezekiel taking over.

I felt better knowing it would be Sam atleast part of the time. I still don't know how I feel about switching back and forth between Sam and Ezekiel, but the bottom line is I want Sam to get better. And if this is the way it has to happen, then I'm going to have to get on board.

For me this was definitely the most intense premiere ever. It really affected me. I know the road ahead of us is going to be rough. But I put myself through hell because I love these boys. And I'll stick with them until the end.

The Road So Far: My Introduction To Supernatural

On Friday March 29, 2013 I watched Supernatural for the first time in my life. I had always loved Halloween, horror movies, and paranormal stuff, so I wasn't quite sure why I had never watched it. But I kept seeing promos for it on TNT and I thought "I should watch it." I kept seeing people post about it on Instagram and Pinterest and I thought "I should watch it." Then one day I started looking at pictures of Jared Padalecki and I thought "I SHOULD WATCH IT!". Then one morning I woke up and saw that it was on. I said "I'm watching it."

I'll never forget the first episode I watched. It was Hell House, the 17th episode of Season 1. Within five minutes I was into it. It had such a creepy feel and I loved the dynamic between Sam and Dean. The prank war between them was the perfect introduction for me. When Sam turned the music up in the Impala and pointed to himself "what? me?" I was like "he's cute". And then when he super glued the beer bottle to Dean's hand I decided they were adorable. They were cute, they hunted ghosts, and they had a hot car, I was hooked. I watched three episodes that day and had pretty much fallen in love.

I told my mom that I fond this great show that I loved and she said "oh good, I'm glad." The next Monday I got up to watch it and my mom was home. She watched casually with me at first, but at the end of the Season 1 finale "Devil's Trap" I could tell she was a little more invested saying "Well now they're all dead on the side of the road!" We continued watching into the week. I gravitated more towards Sam while she gravitated more towards Dean. By mid season 2 I had become emotionally invested in these characters. I realized it was more than just a scary show. I came for the scary, but stayed for the brothers. Soon I was buying DVDs and trying to get caught up to Season 8 on Netflix. I was following cast and crew members on Twitter and countless Supernatural blogs on Tumblr.

Supernatural had become a part of my life. Within two months I'd made it through Season 4. Around the same time I discovered Supernatural conventions. I was amazed that there were whole weekends dedicated to the show where you could see and actually meet the stars. I was curious if there was a con in Las Vegas so I looked it up and there was. Actually, we had just missed it before we started watching the show. But, one for next year was already scheduled. I immediately wanted to go. I told my mom about it, and to my surprise she was actually considering going! My mom has always been very practical and somewhat of a home body in the past, but recently she has been stepping out of her comfort zone. We kept talking about it, and eventually decided we were going. At that point it was 8 months away, but I was still so excited. Before we even bought our tickets to the convention we bought photo ops with Jared and Jensen. When we were ordering my photo op with Jared my heart was beating out of my chest. I couldn't believe that I was going to see Jared Padalecki in person, let alone stand beside him, and touch him. Then we ordered our convention tickets and it was official: we were going to VegasCon!

Now we are caught up on all past seasons, we survived our first season finale and are awaiting the Season 9 premiere. VegasCon is five months away and we are counting down the days. We're driving down crazy street and enjoying the ride.

VLV 17

I'm very sad to report that I did not make it to Viva Las Vegas this year. I was hoping my move and the Rockabilly Weekender would happen at the same time. But it just didn't work out that way.

It's one of the things I look forward to most every year, and I'm crushed that I missed it. Especially this year, being 21 I would have been able to attend everything. And now I have to wait a whole year before I can go again. But I guess that means I have a whole year to plan. I really want to make VLV 17 amazing. I'm promising myself right now that I'm going to do EVERYTHING. And do it full out.

Anyway, I'm hoping to get things moving again here soon. Happy Easter everybody.

Elvis And Las Vegas

Today I wanted to talk a little bit about Elvis and Las Vegas. The two are practically inseparable. If you were to ask someone to randomly name things associated with Vegas it is inevitable that Elvis would come up.

He is widely known as the most popular entertainer the city has ever seen. But his first attempt at Vegas wouldn't lead to this conclusion.

In April 1956 Elvis played Vegas for the first time. 21 years old and still getting used to his newfound stardom he was booked in the Venus Room and the New Frontier Hotel. He was billed as "the atomic powered singer" but his run was hardly a success. Some might even call it a flop.

But Elvis fell in love with Las Vegas anyway.

It took over a decade for Elvis to return to the Las Vegas stage. But when he did, he was a bigger success than anyone could have imagined. Headlining the brand new International Hotel in August of 1969 he played sold out shows nightly. And now he is a permanent Las Vegas icon.

It just makes me think. What if Elvis had never tried Vegas again? What would the city be like now? I probably would never have had any interest in it at all. That's how much Elvis inspires me.
And I think hey, Elvis's first attempt at Vegas didn't work out like he expected, but look at his second. Sometimes you just have to try things again.



Goals For 2013

Inspired by Holly Madison, I've decided to share 5 goals/things I'm excited for in 2013.

1. I'm excited about starting a new adventure. Getting back to Vegas.

2. Start taking steps towards my career goals.

3. I'm excited about being 21 and being able to do ALL of Viva!

4. I want to do a pin-up photo shoot & start taking burlesque classes.

5. FINALLY go to Elvis Week!

This is The Year!

Happy New Year! I have never been so excited for a new year. I am so happy it is 2013!

I'm so excited for a fresh start. I feel rejuvenated and revitalized. I feel happy and excited for this year ahead of me. And I'm making it my priority to stay that way. I'm going to be positive every single day.

This is the year I am turning things around. This is the year I am making things happen. I am determined. Now is the time. Now is MY time.

Here's to an AMAZING 2013!