I ❤️ Fall

Fall is my favorite season. My favorite color. My favorite flavor. It seriously puts me in the best mood. We are a week into September and my perspectives are completely changed. The air is crisper, the leaves are starting to turn, Halloween decorations are starting to pop up in stores, and pumpkin spice is readily available. Also the return of all new episodes of Supernatural is coming!!! It's amazing how much of a difference of simply a switching a new month can completely change my state of mind, but it has. It's Fall, and I'm happy.

I Miss VegasCon.

I miss VegasCon. I miss everything about it. I miss waking up every morning in the Rio. I miss getting my morning Starbucks at the CONVENTION SIDE Starbucks. I miss making all the treks down the mile long hallways. I miss rocking out Rich and Louden Swain every morning. I miss being surrounded by people in SPN t shirts, various forms of cosplay and endless amounts of plaid. I miss clapping and cheering and listening to and laughing with every single guest on the stage. I miss screaming my lungs out every time the Season 12 renewal was mentioned. I miss referring to guests by their first names and everyone knowing who you're talking about. I miss going to dinner and seeing fellow attendees who you don't know but you know they just came from the con. I miss randomly hearing my name and walking over and hugging complete strangers, except that they're not because they know me online. I miss going to the photo op room, and the anticipation of seeing your ops after they've been printed. I miss hearing Carry On Wayward Son played on loud speakers. I miss wandering around in the vendors room saying "oh that's so cool.". I miss complementing people on their outfits or their ops and them doing it back to me. I miss Jared. I miss the butterflies in my stomach I woke up with on Sunday morning. I miss how happy I was getting ready to go down and start JDAY. I miss the intense nervousness I felt sitting in a room with 19 other people less than a foot away from the chair he would sit in. I miss seeing him for the first time of the weekend. I miss watching him up close and catching all of his mannerisms. I miss him looking into my eyes and giving me full attention, answering me so passionately. I miss the scent of his cologne. I miss his arms around me. I miss my arms around him. I miss him calling me "darlin'", Texas drawl in full effect. I miss him rubbing my arms and making our moment last longer. I miss the insane high I feel after I'm around him. I miss seeing J2 on stage. I miss trying to take every single second in. I miss Rich telling us goodbye. I miss waiting to get to Jared's autograph but also not wanting to make it to that moment because then it would officially be over. I miss standing in front of him, I miss how ""heart eyes" I am around him because I just can't help it. I miss him looking up at me. I miss him almost whispering and winking at me. I miss him blowing me a kiss goodbye. I miss VegasCon.

Makeup Rant

As a girl and a girl who loves makeup, there's a topic that really gets to me every time it's brought up. People talk about how for years women have been put under pressure to look "perfect" by wearing makeup, but it seems nowadays that women who don't wear makeup get praised and women who do, especially women who wear a full face of makeup get cut down for it. 

I have reached a point in my life where I AM comfortable wearing no makeup in certain situations, I CAN leave the house without makeup on. I don't like it, but I can do it. I prefer myself with makeup. I feel more like myself with makeup. I don't do it for anyone else, I do it for me. It's the way I like to present myself to the world.

I am by no means telling anyone they HAVE to wear makeup. I see plenty of girls that look gorgeous both with or without makeup. I'm just tired of women who take advantage of resources out there to enhance their beauty and/or create their OWN form of beauty being looked down upon. Wearing makeup or not wearing makeup doesn't make you more of a women, a stronger woman, or a more valuable woman. 

At the end of the day it's every individual's choice whether she wears makeup or not, or how much makeup she wears. Basically I'm saying there are all kinds of beautiful and neither end of the spectrum (or the middle of the spectrum) should be judged.

Elvis Is Back In The Building

Since the Elvis Exhibit at Westgate Las Vegas opened earlier this year, I have visited 3 times. It holds a very special place in my heart, not only because of my love for Elvis but also by how closely I feel our lives are connected and how similar our relationship with Las Vegas is.

Here's a little history on the Westgate. The Westgate Hotel and Casino is now one of the oldeststill in  existence in it's original building in Las Vegas. When it opened in 1969 it was named the International Hotel. The International was sold to Hilton properties in 1970 and renamed the Las Vegas Hilton in 1971. Elvis opened in the International showroom on July 31,1969 and performed 58 consecutive sold out shows, breaking all Las Vegas audience attendance records in history. He would perform again at the property in February of 1970, August of 1970 (famously showcased in his 1970 film Elvis: That's The Way It Is), August of 1972 and again in December of 1976. Elvis even loved the property so much he lived in the penthouse on the 30th floor during his residencies.  The property was renamed the LVH in 2008, then sold to Westgate Resorts and renamed the Westgate Las Vegas in 2014.

When the property was renamed it was also announced that Elvis's presence would be known again. A brand new permanent exhibit with items direct from the Graceland archives was brought in. The very idea of an exhibit in this building dedicated to the man that made it famous was a novel idea that was a long time coming.

The exhibit is beautifully done. It takes you on a journey throughout Elvis's life. It is a soul stirring experience if you can let yourself take it all in and you can truly feel Elvis's presence around you.

The beginning of the exhibit takes you back to Tupelo and Elvis's humble beginnings in Memphis as a young truck driver with a dream of becoming a singer.

There are several items I think some of the most seasoned Elvis fans haven't seen. For example Elvis's tassel from his graduation cap from Humes High in 1953.

Can you spot Elvis in his ROTC group photo?

Then it takes you through his first recording experience at Sun studio, his rise to fame to RCA, his army stint and his movie career.

The orange racing suit Elvis wore in his 1964 film co-starring Ann Margret Viva Las Vegas

And my personal favorite part of the exhibit is his return to the stage in the International showroom in Las. Vegas. There's something about being in the very building with the very clothes and items used during this time that is almost surreal. It takes you back in time and you can almost imagine that Elvis is still playing in the showroom nightly.

The blue suit Elvis wore to sign his initial contract with the International while it was still under construction in 1969. (the picture beside.)

A review of Elvis's first performance at the International on July 31,1969.

The suits Elvis wore onstage and to the press conference immediately following his performance on opening night.

There are several jumpsuits as well as personal items on display throughout the rest of the tour. Just a sampling are shown here:

 

The grand finale is a beautifully done documentary taking you on a journey throughout Elvis's remarkable career. It shows his talent, his charisma, his passion and his heart and brings me to tears every time I watch it.

I have nothing but good things to say about this exhibit. It truly is a tribute fit for a king. (Yeah I had to go there, forgive me for that one cliche.) I have the highest recommendations of it and am so thankful Elvis has rightfully taken back his place in Las Vegas history because of it.

Elvis IS back in the building! (He never truly left. ;))

The Road So Far 2.0: Always Keep Fighting

I don't know why I always get the urge to write late at night, my thoughts seem to flow better during this time. Anyway, I was inspired by Jared to share my story. I don't talk about this often, in fact I usually avoid bringing it up but it IS a subject that needs to be adressed and if it can help save one person it is beyond worth it.

I do have first hand experience with suicide. My dad suffered from bipolar disorder and struggled with it for as far back as I can remember. He ultimately took his own life in 2009 when I was 17. That was without a doubt the hardest thing I've ever had to go through and have been a strong advocate of suicide prevention ever since. 

On the flip side, I have also struggled with depression issues myself. Around the time I found Supernatural I was in a very dark place. I felt very lost and very lonely. There were times that year that the thought of suicide crossed my mind. I never made any attempts or any plans, but I did have those thoughts. 

Then I discovered Supernatural by chance. Did I think right away when I started watching it that it was going to save my life? No. I didn't even realize half of the affect that it would have on me. Honestly, I thought okay it's a show with 2 hot guys in a hot car with ghosts and monsters. But it made me happy. Then as I got more into the story I realized it was so much more. I related to these characters. I noticed immediately that I  connected very deeply with Sam. And then I discovered the fandom, and that gave me something to belong to. I especially loved how connected the cast was to the fans and the way they thought of them as family. 

Soon I didn't only have a connection to Sam, I also had one to Jared. He gave me happiness, he gave me hope and he gave me inspiration to keep going. Sometimes still during that year I would have moments of wanting to give up but knowing I was going to get to meet him was the main reason I wanted to push through. I wanted to be here for that. And meeting him was a truly life changing experience. We only exchanged a few words but he gave me so much inspiration to keep going. He is the reason I turned my life around, the reason I felt determined to get to a happier place. And even though I'm still working on getting to where I ultimately want to be, and even though I still have my moments of weakness I am inspired to always keep going, because of him.

I can't  think of a better campaign and better message for Jared to be a leader for. It is everything Supernatural, Sam Winchester and Jared Padalecki are to me. A symbol of hope, a symbol of strength, and an inspiration to never give up, to ALWAYS KEEP FIGHTING. And I couldn't be more proud of him, or to support this cause. You are an amazing individual Jared, I love you.❤️

Please if you or someone you know is suffering from depression, talk about it! And please support this amazing cause:

https://represent.com/Jared

The Road So Far 2.0: Getting Inked Up

After attending VegasCon 2014 I knew I wanted a Supernatural tattoo. I even decided that weekend that I wanted to get one. Because of the instant connection I had with fans and cast alike and the overwhelming feeling of family. I knew then that it meant more to me than just a TV show. That this story, these characters and this fandom would be a part of me for life. So I wanted to commemorate it with a tattoo.

I thought about the design a lot and while I loved the idea of getting the anti possession symbol and having the same tattoo as Sam and Dean, I also wanted something that represented what the show meant to me and to represent the SPN family.  I'd never  seen a traditional style Supernatural tattoo before but I thought it would be cool, so I came up with the idea of getting the colt which was a perfect symbol of the show with a banner that said "Saving People, Hunting Things" which of course the next line is "The Family Business" which represents my SPN Family.

I got it done by Lea Vendetta at Hart and Huntington (HUNTINGton!) Tattoo in the Hard Rock Hotel and Casino. Which is a GORGEOUS shop by the way! Take a look:

Lea has a really cool way of combining styles and the design she came up with was amazing. It was like a portrait of the colt but still had a traditional feel which I loved. She also took so much time to make sure all the engravings were perfect on the gun and tried out a few different fonts for the banner. We decided on this for the final design and it was perfect.

Then she shrunk it down to fit on my arm and put the stencil on. We let that dry for about 5 minutes and then got started!

First of all I have to point out that Lea was totally awesome. We had great conversation and she got really interested in the show as I was telling her about it. She wanted to see pictures of the boys because I told her "they're nice to look at." And she said she would totally go for Sam which I loved. So she made it an easier process for me. The pain really wasn't that bad. She started with the outline, which only hurt around my wrist and my elbow. Then she went over the banner and the edges of the gun to make it thicker to make it look more traditional.

(And yes, I got tattooed in plaid. What other way is there to do so?)

Then she did the shading which honestly only hurt when she was wiping away the excess ink. 

And then finally she did color! And I will be honest and say this DID start to hurt towards the end because essentially she was tattooing over my skin twice. So it was very raw and stung a lot.

But I made it through in 4 hours and couldn't be happier with the result! It turned out better than I even imagined. And now I have peice of art forever on my body to show my dedication to my favorite TV show, my love for my SPN Family and to always also remind myself to never stop fighting which is what Supernatural is all about for me.❤️

The Road So Far 2.0: One Year Later

Sooo I haven't blogged in FOREVER. And a whole bunch of crap has happened in my personal life. But it looks like things are looking up. ;) And I AM living in Las Vegas officially again! AND VegasCon is exactly one month from today!!! I can't believe it has been a year already, and I can't believe how close it is. I feel like I've accomplished a lot in this year and overall I am in a better place this year mentally and emotionally than I was last year. And once again I have Supernatural and my SPN Family to thank for that. 

I didn't truly know the meaning of SPN Family until VegasCon last year and after that experience my outlook on life changed. It gave me courage and strength and hope to carry on. I now have friends I know in real life that I met through the Supernatural fandom. I am more invested and dedicated to Supernatural than I ever have been since I started watching but at the same I have accomplished so much in my own personal growth as a person and I know none of it would have happened without Supernatural. I am so grateful for this show, this story, these characters and this fandom every day. I truly believe I wouldn't be where I am and wouldn't be WHO I am and possibly wouldn't be here today without Supernatural. 

I may not be exactly where I thought I would be by now, or have reached my ultimate goal but if Sam and Dean have taught me anything it's this: life is a journey, not a destination. It's the road so far. And I can't wait to celebrate just how far I've come over the past year and look forward to the road ahead. I can't wait to see my SPN Family including the cast. I can't wait it see Jared, my sunshine. To tell him I love him and thank him for all he's done for me. I can't wait for four days of wonderful and amazing. I want to soak it all in. To savor every single second. To take away more amazing memories. I just can't wait.